I Changed My Mind

Somewhere along the way, I started seeing things differently. 🤍

 

I used to think changing my mind meant I lacked discipline.

I thought once I chose something, I had to stick with it.

Even when I was unhappy.

Even when I had outgrown it.

Even when it no longer made sense.

So I stayed.

Longer than I should have.

I stayed in routines that no longer excited me.

I held onto goals I didn't even want anymore.

I forced myself to keep going simply because I had already invested time.

I told myself that quitting would mean I had failed.

But somewhere along the way, I realized something.

Sometimes, changing your mind is wisdom.

Not weakness.

There are things I wanted at twenty that I no longer want.

And honestly, I'm grateful.

Because the woman I was then did not know what the woman I am now knows.

Back then, I thought being busy meant I was productive.

Now, I value peace.

Back then, I wanted approval.

Now, I want authenticity.

Back then, I admired people who never stopped.

Now, I admire people who know when to stop.

I used to believe every opportunity had to be pursued.

Now, I understand that some opportunities come with costs I no longer want to pay.

And that's okay.

I think we pressure ourselves too much to remain loyal to old versions of ourselves.

As if growth is supposed to look consistent.

As if we are never allowed to update our dreams.

As if changing direction means something went wrong.

But maybe nothing went wrong.

Maybe we simply changed.

Maybe we learned.

Maybe we healed.

Maybe we saw life differently.

Maybe we finally became honest.

I no longer judge myself for wanting different things.

I no longer feel guilty for outgrowing what once made sense.

And I no longer see changing my mind as starting over.

I see it as paying attention.

Because I have learned something beautiful.

Not every promise I made to myself deserves to be kept forever.

Some deserve to be questioned.

Some deserve to be released.

And some deserve to be replaced with better ones.

I still believe in commitment.

But I no longer believe in forcing myself to remain loyal to a life that no longer feels like mine.

I have changed my mind many times.

And strangely enough, some of the best things in my life happened because I did.

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